what were the poet's feelings at the airport how did she hide them

The poet was very upset about the growing age of her mother.she felt uncomfortable to leave her mother alone as she understood that her mother's death had come closer.she didn't want to get seperated from her mother.She hide her feelings by giving an optimistic message to her mother. She told that nothing to worry about she will back soon.and she smiled smiled and smiled

At the airport the poet, Kamala Das, feels fearful of leaving her pale, ageing mother alone and unattended. She has an ache and fear inside her heart and is not sure if she will be able to see her mother again. She hides her feelings of anxiety by giving a long and cheerful smile to her mother as she bids her adieu.